2010-11-12

2010-11-06

thank you.

even though i always seem to date assholes i also realize every time that i have the best friends who are not only taking care of me and keeping me busy when i need distraction but who are also willing to be the bitch that they know i cant be. and i definitely should make a huge party for them soon :):)

2010-10-07

oh how do they know.

i can't go back to you america. cause it hurts too much to leave.
i can't stay for all eternity cause i got my own home and fairys.

2010-07-26

now

the hardest part is
to pretend that i dont care
pretend that i'm okay.





2010-07-05

oh please

please let me sleep
cause there's another wave
right in front of me
and this time
i'll drown.

2010-06-20

so take off your sweater your shoes and your shirt and get to work.




oh my god what have i done?
now my darling put your clothes back on.

2010-06-16

caught up in the middle.

somewhere between
loving you and trying to move on.

somewhere between
moving and staying.

somewhere between
how i used to be like and
how you used to like me to be and
how i am now.

somewhere between
metalscreams and sad slow guitar songs.

somewhere between
party-alcohol-cigarettes and
long-walks-coffee-good-talks.

somewhere between
what i think i like and
what i think i should like.

somewhere between
what feels right and
what i think should feel right.


somewhere
where i'm searching for love and someone to care
but only get offered sex.

somewhere
where you don't care anymore about
who i am
or
what i do
or
who i'm with.


you know i hate it here in the middle.
you know i dont belong to neither one of the sides.
you know i'm waiting for you to
save me.


but


"i need more time he says,
because time makes feelings fade."

2010-06-01

things to do to make me happy

- learn how to handle money, noone needs so many shoes... or do i?

- stop believing that you're a ghost and that you don't matter in this world - you DO matter and there ARE people who care - start believing that

- start considering things, start caring (!)

- travel, get out of this city, it makes you sad

- start doing the things again you used to be good at, you used to be so creative, lose your fear of failing

- keep your apartement clean and throw away those old things - you don't need to hold on to this crap

- start writing down what you like and what you don't like so you find yourself again

- STOP WORRYING ABOUT THE FUTURE

- get over him, he doesn't care anymore anyway (or how many letters and phone calls have you recieved yet? none? see.)

- stop drinking too much, i know everybody likes you when you're drunk cause you're funny but you know that you don't like yourself when you get too crazy and messed up (that's not you anymore, you don't feel good like that)




this should work. let's get started ladies. night.

2010-05-19

favorites.


i must admit i'm going down within this ship
i couldn't have a better crew to travel with
if i make it in one piece back to land
i will never sail again
never.

2010-05-06

did we become

romance-intolerant?

2010-03-31

smile, you've won.



love is not for me -
i promise
love is not for me-
no.

but whatever you wear, always dress to kill.





and school reached its most boring point today. so you can't blame us for stupid iphoning all of the time haha

babies.







schooligami





bea showed me how to make origamis :)

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2010-03-26

lazy painting day part 2.

still not ready.



and btw


boouuuhh!


xx

2010-03-25

a place

to keep my darkest thoughts.
as dark as my hair is finally now again.


2010-02-21

2010-02-14

valentine.






2010-02-12

it's my mess. but it's your fault.



(photo one: dress zara, cardigan zara, overknees h&m, shoes h&m)
(photo two: jacket hugo, shirt alexisonfire, skirt topshop, overkneeboots goertz)

2010-02-07

painting sunday part 1


i'd be happy again, if i was only there.

2010-02-05

there is a light and it never goes out.




sabeati.











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hershey's kisses and pop tarts for breakfast







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2010-02-03

La chocolaterie part two












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